Oh my, I haven't been around for ages. And I have to admit, I've been missing LJ! The people, the pretty design, the fact that no one that I know irl know about it. Oh yes, I think I've missed it more than I've been aware of. I started this blog in norwegian, and all my friends and everybody knew about it. Suddenly I woke up one day, and I didn't feel like I could write whatever I wanted, because there are some thing's I just don't want my friends to know. Like the fact that I feel I don't have any really really good friends. That would be a bummer, eh? So, here I am, crawling back on my knees, begging for you to take me back. Will you give me a second (... fifth?) chance?

I'm so sorry I haven't been on here much, not commented or posted much, it's just been a little much lately. I promise I will be back soon, good and ready!! I'm no fun at the moment..

Congratulations America :):) It is a hapy day for the world!!

I've been playing around with the idea of starting up a website of my own, nothing fancy really, just a personal blog. When I read blogs owned by people who earns millions and billions of dollars just running a successful personal website, I get jealous, and I want a piece of the cake aswell, so maybe I 'll do it, although I'd probably give up eventually. I've had plenty of websites before, but I've always lost interest a couple of months after, sometimes hardly weeks. I have attachement-issues I think :P

I wish it could come some snow already. Now it's just cold and shitty. If there was snow, I wouldn't mind the cold, but now it's just shitty! I hate waking up in the morning because I'm cold, and I really don't like it when my nose is cold, and my nose has been cold for the last couple of weeks now. I wonder if anybody ever invented a nose-warmer?

Today has been a good day for me. Even though I am sitting in my kitchen, with a scarf around my neck, freezing, it has been a good day :)

xoxo C

You know when you meet that one friend that you trust 100%, whom you can tell absolutely everything? Someone you know will always be there for you, no matter if it's a broken heart or a stain on your favourite shirt. You have a best friend like that? I don't, and I don't know whether it's me there's something wrong with, or I just haven't met the "right person".

I have friends, and I've had best friends, but when I say best friend, that's it, I'm just saying it. I can not honestly say that I've really had a best friend, and it makes me sad. I have a boyfriend whom I love, and all that, but I want that girly best friend relationship, someone whom I can call whenever, no matter if I have something to say or not. Someone I can call just to talk about everything and nothing. Someone who understands me and accept my flaw's.

I've heard life ain't worth a damn crap without good friends, so where does that leave me?

I have too little faith in myself. I tend to think that people are only nice to me because they have to, but I know that's not true. I know that people laugh because that joke I told was actually funny, and I know that people don't invite me to parties just to be nice, they ask because they want me there. I know all this, but my mind keeps telling me differently, and it's stopping me from really trusting someone. Keep in mind that these people are probably just asking you to come, because nobody else had the time.

Seriously, I am totally having one of my moments :P Don't mind me heh!!

I just left applications at two clothing-stores, and I really hope I get them. I really need a job so that I can afford clothes, and nothing better than clothes on discount!!! I would hate to end up walking around naked, although that wouldn't be so bad, hadn't it been so cold...

Right now I'm eating a pear. I'm not fat or anything, but wouldn't mind losing a couple of punds, so I'm eating a pear. I wish I was one of those who could just eat their eyes out (eyes..?), eat absolutely EVERYTHING, and still remain skinny, but no. If I wanna be like that, I would probably have to puke out my food after every meal. I could do that, but I don't want to ruin my teeth.. So I have promised to try and eat healthy, or at least, less unhealthy. I even bought raisins (sp?), to have something to snack on, but I don't really like raisins that much.. I'm just trying to cut down on the candy. Since I stopped smoking, I've been wanting something to snack on ALL THE TIME; not good.

Anyway, I'm finished eating my pear..
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Way to go with the title, right? Real original, song title, never seen that one before. Well, lets not be so negative. How about an introduction before the world turns into shit? No, I'm kidding, I won't spend all my time complaining about everything. Some things, but not everything! ;) Well, my name is Carina,  I live in the capital of Norway, which, as probably all of you know (right?) is Oslo. And here I live with four other girls. And now you're thinking, yay, gayfest, but, no. I have a boyfriend who is working in the Norwegian air force, so yeah, he has muscles ^^ Me and myself is a major in journalism, which should mean that I am very clever, but no. I have a major loan who is only going to grow with the years, because I pay for school from my own pocket. Or the banks pocket.. or.. whatever... I'm 20 years old, and as most girls my age, I like to party and have a good time, but I also read alot, and try to write some when the occasion arises and I feel the bubbles of inspiration in my stomach (which is obsenely rare). Well, what more can I say? I'm not really as bitchy as I may seem by my writing (or maybe I should call it ranting..) on here. I'm actually a very nice, kind of shy girl who has all the everyday struggles as anyone my age. I like music, I like clothes, I like movies.

Uhm, I think that was about it. Oh, and I like to feel really sorry for myself, so I am probably going to talk alot about my problems and all my "pain" that I feel in everyday-life. So no dissing, a'ight?

xoxo C